I lost HIM / 2012
The work questions fate, probability and faith. Inspired by the story of “Jack and the beanstalk” and Saint Andrew’s day of the Christian calendar (November 30th), it talks about loss. The loss can be either of Jack from the beanstalk or the one of HIM. Through mystical, occult or wrongfully written messages we can step aside from what someone would call faith. It can occur without feeling or even questioning it. Through the narrative content of what is presented to us, we are taken away, straying further and further away from ourselves and our own representation of what we see around us, getting in a way lost within a wood without any readable map to look into.
One day before Saint Andrew’s day, on November 29th, Christians put grain on a saucer in order to foretell what next year brings. If the grain will grow beautifully until New Year’s eve, than so shall the family that sowed it. If the grain will not grow, or if it shall become rotten and diseased, than the next year will reflect the same on family. If the grain shall grow taller and taller, that will mean that you shall have fortune, money and health.
The growth of the grain could be seen as a reflection of the wish a humble man to reach the skies. Thus, “I lost him” tries to find him, not only stating a loss. If the searcher manages to find, it might not wish to return as well – charmed by the place to which the one has escaped into or the medium of the escape, becoming himself lost as well.